Starting weight: 184
Weight lost or gained: +2 pounds
So the one bad thing about dieting is not only giving up some foods you love but gaining weight back too. I could tell when I woke up this morning that I didn’t feel as skinny as I did the day before. I just felt jiggly. You know what I mean? Like everything that felt tight the day before wiggled like a heaping bowl of Jello. I stepped on the scale and there it was…staring me in the eyes. I’ve gained 2 pounds…pushing my weight to 166. Gag me!
So how did this happen? I’m pretty sure I’ve got a good explanation. Monday, I ate a hamburger from a fast food restaurant to celebrate my 20 pound weight loss. While it fit in my calorie range, the sodium was much higher than what I needed. Then there was that binge snacking I got involved in where I went crazy on a sleeve of sugar free cookies. And while that may sound healthier than my regular pre-diet comfort food choices of mac and cheese, cookie dough and sour cream remember healthy foods have calories too. Plus, I didn’t log them into my app because I didn’t care at that point what damage I was doing. Then last night while I was cooking lasagna rolls and I got hungry. So I snacked on rice cakes. While the lasagna rolls were cooking I got my hoe, went outside, and dug up weeds in my landscape. But I kept taking breaks in between to munch on sour cream and onion crackers (addictive!). Then it was supper time…I ate 1 1/2 lasagna rolls-which would have been fine if I hadn’t eaten all that other stuff first. I had the lasagna rolls figured into my day but blew it with my snacking in between option. I told mom about it and she encouraged me in her strong parental voice to stay out of the crackers and log my calories. Sometimes a girl has an off day. I admit I am a little disappointed that now I have to try and lose an extra 2 pounds to get back to my 20 pound goal but we all experience pitfalls when we diet.
I am not going to beat myself up over 2 pounds. I know what to do to get it off. I know better than to take whatever is bothering me out on food. I’ve regrouped and I’m ready to get back on track. Blogging what craziness I fall off into helps me stay accountable and it also shows you that I struggle just like everyone else. I’ve had a successful streak of weight loss but that doesn’t mean I don’t have days where I could care less about eating right and being healthy. I try not to have those days and if they come around I do my best to motivate myself to do good, not just for me but for those of you following my blog. Nobody said this was going to be easy. Nobody said there is a magical way to drop the pounds and stay focused. It’s a mental game. You have to keep telling yourself to push through the hard times. Most of the time I can talk myself off a skyscraper but i have moments where it is much easier to give in. Just remember-we are only human.
Despite my weight gain I am wearing a suit jacket today that I have not worn in several years. It has a skirt that goes with it but I’m not sure it will fit yet as it is cut more straight than curvy. The jacket is kind of a strange blue/gray color. I bought it many years ago as an outfit for church. As time goes by I eventually rotate Sunday clothes into my everydat work pile. It’s nice to see the jacket fit-and more importantly button all the way down. So while I may be a little outdone with myself over gaining a few pounds, the bright side? My clothes still fit!! That is motivation enough to get back on track, eat right, log my food intake, and get some exercise.
Let’s all breath, enjoy the day, and make wise food choices. And as my great grandmother always said, “Count it all joy.”